Hey hey everyone!
For me, one of the hardest thing to do sometimes is to let go of things..specially things that hurt me..but sometimes it just weighs you down and you need to move on…
There was an issue in my life regarding to people who aren’t even directly in my life, but at a certain period in time I thought were my friends, that I had a hard time letting go of.
Regardless if it was me who misinterpreted that someone was my friend or if the person was playing me all along, the fact is she hurt me. Not only by saying she never was my friend, but also by turning around and lying to her friends saying I had said stuff about them that she had been the one to say to begin with. It was hard. I am a person that takes friendships very seriously and it was hard feeling like I had been played like that.
For a very long time it was an issue for me. The pain was too soon and I…well I had hopes we would work things out. When the person had a bad breakup and needed support, I was there for her. I was hurt at her and I wanted to hate her, I did, but I couldn’t not be there for her. And after that when she just treated me like a piece of shit, going to my boyfriend saying crap about me…I decided I had had it. And it was the best decision ever!
Once I let go of it, I felt like a huge weight had been lifted from my shoulders. I couldn’t change what had happened and I certainly couldn’t change her. I resigned with the fact that she was, is and probably always will be a bad friend and that it wasn’t my fault. I felt sad, but I felt better once I let go of the guilt I had, that wasn’t mine to have in the first place.
It’s just like trying to let go of the fact that I have and will always have cellulite, it ain’t going nowhere and I already know that. But accepting it has been harder than I thought it would be. Ok…maybe it’s not the same thing, but it’s close =P
Let go of what you cannot change, because sometimes holding on to things that you shouldn’t, will just make you unhappy! And you deserve happiness!
Have a great week!