I wish you all an amazing 2014 and hope you had a very good New Year with all your loved ones!
2013 was for me definitely a big year.. I learned a lot..I lost a lot..and I gained a lot as well! I’m not one for resolutions, because I don’t believe the change of a year is going to magically make someone change as well. I think it might be a good motivator, but for me, it’s not a reason to make changes. Anytime is a good time to make a change for the best, right?
In the past year I feel I grew a lot as a person…maybe the most I had in a year.
I made new friends, I got new opportunities, I had fights and laughs. I had it all.
In January my Dad had his birthday and we celebrated with a very good dinner!
In February I was rushed to the hospital with what I thought was a simple low blood sugar issue, only to be told I was having a nervous breakdown. I denied it, but the panic attacks remained and some very hard months were ahead me.
In April my panic attacks got worse and worse. I finally decided to go see an Endocrinologist and that truly changed my life!
May was one of the most eventful months of the year for me. I had my University graduation celebration on the 18th (even though we weren’t still done with classes) with all of my friends there, as well as my family. The next day I had the opportunity to go to the Portuguese Golden Globes Awards and loved it! All the glamour of it, all the beautiful people..everything. I was a bit shy at first, but in the end I had a lot of fun!
Me & Dad at my Graduation
June 3rd was my birthday and I celebrated with a lunch with all of my closest friends and then a family dinner. I hadn’t celebrated my birthday with friends in a long long time and it was a good reminder of why I love doing it!
Me and some of my best friends doing crazy poses on my birthday!
July was another eventful month for me! In the beginning of the month I got my last grade (and the one I was most scared about because it was a really hard subject for me!) and officially graduated from University! A week after I got my first “off university/’real’ job”, a part time job in an office while someone was in maternity leave, but hey, it was a job! On the 26th I got to bring home my baby Cookie and she’s been my companion since then!
In August after some medical exams I was told I have had insulin resistance for almost 15 years. All the fainting spells, not being able to lose weight was finally explained. I had to finally deal with the fact that I’ve had a depression for a long time and never dealt with it. It was the start of a long long journey that I am currently still on and will have to be on my whole life.
In September I got to celebrate my best friends birthday with her and all our friends and it was yet another reminder of why I love that girl! She’s always there for me and we just think the same…we’re two sides of the same coin!
In October was probably the saddest month of the year. David and I broke off a two year relationship and that was very hard at first. We still love each other very much, but sometimes just loving someone isn’t enough, real life gets in the way and circumstances change. We’re still best friends and I can say he knows me better than anyone else and is always there for me, we talk everyday. I vouch to do the same for him and don’t even want to think about how my life would be without him in it. We helped each other grow as people and did it together, we know each other in our best and in our worst. And trust me, he was there for me all through my worst! He was also the first one to support me in my decision to go to Vienna in pursue of a better life, better job opportunities and just overall better things.
November and December weren’t very eventful. I’m out of a job again and no matter how hard I tried, I couldn’t find one. Cookie was sterilized and I was more nervous than she was, but everything went great. My Mom had birthday. Christmas came and went and last night was New Years Eve. I wanted to have a special holiday season since I do not know if I’ll be able to be with my parents for the next season. Or when I’ll be able to be back. I think the most eventful this was definitely thelaunch of this blog!
Me and my Best Friend Dani last Saturday!
This was a very eventful year. A hard one, but also one of many joys. I got to know who my true friends are. I learned that those who love you will be there for you at your worst. I was a wreck, I was worse than a wreck. Looking back I don’t even know how I still have friends. How David stayed with me while I was so mentally unstable, knowing how I was, even when I was aware of it. But I am utterly proud of myself for taking my life into my own hands. I am no longer afraid to telling people what I think, what I reallythink, and standing up for myself.
David, Daniela, Alex, Clara and Hugo were my rocks during this years. Along with so many others that were always there for me, always open for a hug or a shoulder to cry on (and trust me, I cried a lot!). Catarina M.; Cátia; Catarina C.; Filipa M.; Vítor F.; Sofia D. S.; Teresa; Diogo; Simon and Sam and Di (even though from the other side of the world) and so many more. Teachers that I thought wouldn’t care about how I felt (after all, they have so many students) were there for me, people I thought would never be supportive were some of those who were the most there for me.