Happy New Year!
We survived New Year’s Eve surrounded by the illegal rockets that everyone in our neighborhood shoots on the 31st of December. Starting at 10 am. Uninterrupted.
I told you in this post that I am not really into the whole resolutions thing people do when the year turns. I am a firm believer you can change something whenever you wish to and don’t have to wait for the 1st of January to do so. Nevertheless, there are some things I want to keep doing and others I want to start doing in 2018.
7 THINGS I WANT TO DO IN 2018
Put myself first – this is something I (finally) starting doing. Up until a few months ago, I would put everyone else above and before me. This meant I was often tired and frustrated and did not feel like what I was doing had any meaning. If you work until you drop, you will literally drop. Whether it is work, friendships or family, everyone should put themselves first in some situations. Especially if you don’t want to do something or speak to someone you know messes with you. Put yourself first and don’t do it unless you want to.
Stand up for myself and my decisions – I wrote something similar in my 2017 “resolutions” post. And for the most part, I was successful! But there is still one place I need to work on: when it comes to my family. I never really felt like I was (good) enough while growing up – there was always something I could do better, something I should have done differently, something I ought to not have said. Which is probably the reason why I always ended up giving in to what others wanted or simply not defending myself, which can be even worse. I have already started being more assertive towards my parents because obviously, they are the most difficult people to do this to and, quite honestly, what my aunts think doesn’t really affect me anymore.
Be less stressed – For numerous reasons I won’t mention now, I have extreme anxiety – mostly social. When I am stressed, things get worse and every single fear I have comes up time 1000 (seriously, my emetophobia has been off the charts lately!). And when that happens, I start obsessing over everything that can happen in every situation. It’s hard on Markus and it is even harder on me because I am in a constant state of panic when it happens. Obviously, certain things are not under my control, but I want to try and get more relaxed about things.
Practice self-care – whether it is mentally or physically, I want to start and take better care of myself. Like moisturizing. Sounds simple, eh? Well, I don’t do it nearly as much as I should, even though I know it only makes my Neurodermitis and Exzema worse. But I also want to get myself mentally more under control, especially now that baby is coming soon.
Read more – guys, I used to be the biggest bookworm ever! I was able to finish a Harry Potter book in two days or less, but somehow I stopped reading as much in the last few years. I want to start doing it again because it is something I really enjoy. Besides, I asked for a new book for Christmas and
Markus Santa brought it, so there really is no excuse not to read more, is there?
Live more in the moment – maybe because I have been so stressed the last 1.5 years, I stopped living the moments. This is something I want to start doing again! Whether it is simply take in my surroundings whenever I’m out on a walk or really enjoy the feeling something gives me. I want to stop simply taking pictures and actually enjoy what I am doing and living the picture as well!
Be a good mother – maybe I am putting too much pressure on myself about the things that I don’t want to do as a mother, but this one is really scary for me. Everyone around me says I will be a great mother – mostly based on how I treat animals (ex. our office dog). I know every new mom has the fear of letting their baby fall, but somehow my fears are all more about the time baby starts to show their own personality. I sure as hell hope they love animals, or else I’m putting the baby up for adoption! (I’m kidding. Kinda.)